You Are The Inspiration

I have never met or seen someone whose personality is larger than her life. You are the only one in my entire life. I admire your courage, your positive attitude, your determination and most of all, your zest for life. Though you lived only a short 10 years, the life you lived was definitely much more meaningful than most of us. If I ever had an offspring, I would name her after you, Shiloh.

Your Final Journey

You are gone, finally.

Hope your loved ones, especially your husband and daughter, stay strong and move on with their lives.

Our hearts cry out for you and your family.

Please Stay Strong

I hope you stay strong. Hope to 'see' you on Wednesday. We all grief with you, so please get back on your feet soon...We all know that you will be strong. You are not alone.

R.I.P.

In the middle of the flowing seasons,
I suddenly feel the length of the days.
during the days when it is too busy,
you and I sketch out our future.

Placing their love on March's wind,
the sakura buds continue on through spring.

rays of an overflowing light,
little by little, warm up the morning.
After giving a large yawn,
I'm a little shy being by your side.

Standing at a new world's entrance,
I now notice that I'm not alone.

If I close my eyes, you are there.
under my eyelids you live.
How strong it could become
As for you and me, I want to be together

The dust carried by a whirlwind,
entwines with the laundry to be done,
Just before noon the white moon in the sky
I was somehow fascinated by how pretty it was.

Although there are times when I can't do it right,
if I look up at the sky, even being that small

The blue sky is sharply clear
the sheeplike clouds quietly sway.
the joy of waiting for flowers to bloom
if it's sharing that with you, that is happiness.

In the future as well gently smile next to me.

If I close my eyes, you are there.
under my eyelids you live.
How strong it could become
As for you and me, I want to be together

A Quiet Monday Morning

Monday morning was extremely quiet. Things around me seemed sombre. The bus was exceptionally empty. People in the street, mostly clad in black, seemed to be sharing the grief.

The sky was overcasted but the rain didn't pour.

Can't wait for Monday to be over. Just want to be alone. Again. Coz nothing matters anymore.

Anzen Chitai

Looking forward to 24th October 2010!

それが通過する

An Ugly Life?

On my way to work the other day, I saw an old man who bears a resemblance to Jose. He has a huge growth on his face but it has not covered up his whole face yet. The growth is kindda round and smooth; unlike that of Jose's, who has multiple growths which protrude and are rough in surface. I started questioning myself: Why doesn't he seek help? Is it because he is poor? Or is it because he just doesn't want to seek help? Or is it because lilike the young Jose, whose mum used to pamper him and gave him the idea ththat it was the mirror's fault that he is ugly?

It really pains me to see people like them suffering everyday.

On the same day when I was returning from work, there was this really elderly man sitting beside me in the bus. He looks like he is in his late 80s or early 90s with numerous liver spots on his wrinkled face and hands. He started asking me if the bus that he boarded would take him to B. I told him the bus would go to W. He emphasized again that he had to return to B. I told him that he had to get off at the next stop and walked to another stop at the junction to take another bus to B. He did just that. However, when the bus stopped at the stop, I realised that he would have to walk about 500m to get to the stop where there is bus number 7. I felt so sorry for him instantly. I prayed that he got back home safely eventually.

I guess life is not so beautiful afterall for people like them...

Aska はじまりはいつも雨

Duran Duran - Come Undone

Reality

Reality's hitting me, read hard. Concerned people around me are happy
I should be elated too.

Careless Whisper.

Celebration of Life

Blue skies, white fluffy clouds
What a lovely sight

Beautiful music
In this awesome morning

It calls for a celebration!
A celebration of Life!

Romantische Ironie

Will be like this for the next few days!

My Thoughts Are With You

Not sure why I have been thinking about you. Various images of you have been coming into my mind the last few days; when I lay in bed, travelling in the bus, walking, and even sitting in front of the computer typing away.

I guess no one can understand why you did what you did. No one could and still cannot understand how miserable you were. Your world was in total darkness, but no one could see that. I am also not sure why I am filled with so much sadness of the decision that you took, though our paths never crossed.

I am sure you are happy now, you chose the path, though your loved ones around you must be devastated. I pray that you have already met him in heaven...

R.I.P.

Being Carefree

It's been the longest time ever since I feel so carefree in my life. Trying to savour every single second and am enjoying every bit of it.

Good times never last, soon they will be gone. It's time to go back to reality. Sigh.....

平井堅 - いつか離れる日が来ても / Ken Hirai - Itsuka Hanareru ... [cover]

いつか離れる日が来ても!

平井堅 – いつか離れる日が来ても

作詩：Ken Hirai
作曲：Ken Hirai

魔法のような笑顔に　何度救われただろう
手をつないだ帰り道　ふと心細くなる

自分より大事なもの　手にするのが幸せだと
教えてくれた君は　僕を強くも弱くもする

「考え過ぎだよ　笑ってよ」僕の頬をつねるけど
このぬくもりに満たされる程
失う怖さにどうしようもなく襲われるんだ

いつか離れる日が来ても
出会えた全てを悔やむ事だけは　決してしたくないから
ねぇ　今キスしてもいいかな?
なぜだろう　こんなに君を想うだけで　涙が出るんだ

君という宝物が　隣にいる奇蹟を
あの空はおぼえている　時を超えおぼえてる

愛の言葉を並べても　1つにはなれなくて
このぬくもりに甘えてしまう
失う怖さをかき消す様に　何度も何度も

いつか心が壊れても
大好きな君を憎む事だけは　決してしたくないから
ねぇ　今抱きしめていいかな?
どうしてこんなに君を想うだけで　苦しくなるんだ

いつか離れる日が来ても
出会えた全てを悔やむ事だけは　決してしたくないから
ねぇ　今キスしてもいいかな?
なぜだろう　こんなに君を想うだけで　涙が出るんだ

なぜだろう　こんなに君を想うだけで　涙が、、、出るんだ


Hirai Ken – Even If We Must Part Someday

Lyrics: Ken Hirai
Music: Ken Hirai

How many times have I been saved by your magical smile?
As we hold hands and walk home together, I suddenly become forlorn

You taught me that happiness is gaining something
More important than yourself and you make me both stronger and weaker

“You’re thinking too hard. Smile.”
You pinch my cheek
But as much as this warmth fills me
I can’t help being assaulted by the fear of losing you

Even if we must part someday
I don’t ever want to regret meeting everything about you
Say, is it alright if I kiss you now?
Why is it when I think of you like this tears come out?

You are a treasure and being by my side is a miracle
That the sky will remember for all time

Even if I line up words of love for you, we can’t be as one
I’ll lose myself in this warmth
Like erasing the fear of losing you, over and over

Even if my heart breaks someday
I don’t ever want to hate you whom I love so much
Say, is it alright if I hold you now?
Why is it when I think of you like this I’m in so much pain?

Even if we must part someday
I don’t ever want to regret meeting everything about you
Say, is it alright if I kiss you now?
Why is it when I think of you like this tears come out?

Why is it when I think of you like this…tears come out?

Ken Hirai Boku wa Kimi ni Koi wo suru[eng sub]

Lethargic Monday

Having slept for 7 hours, am still feeling sluggish. Really dread tomorrow afternoon ....it won't be nice to cancel it. Hope today will be good.

Aphorism

Someone asked me today, "Have you heard that nice people finish last?"
Is it true?
"Do no evil". That's the policy. Does it mean that the "do no evil" philosophy does not hold water at all?

Nothingness

いま、会いにゆきます

Raising the Bar

For myself? A little scared and very worried. Whatever will be, will be. Que Sara Sara...

Windy Monday

What a windy day, with greeneries around him and looking up at the vast sky, he realises that it's not a clear day today. The sky is not blue, but it's decorated with lots of white and fluffy cottons. The clouds slowly float away, changing the sky scene every now and then.

With a heavy heart, he trudges on, moving slowly but steadily, carrying the hope that he will see rainbow soon. The clouds continue to float away from his view, while he continues to keep going. The wind still continues to blow, but it doesn't blow his troubles away.

Alone among the geenery, he sighs. He tries his best to stay positive, telling himself that things will only get better. All things can't stay inertia all the time. Things that fall will rise again. Likewise, things that go up and one day fall, and may fall real hard. He heard from a wise man the other day: "I was born to live. All living things are born to live, and since I am born to live, I wanna live a happy live. I wanna do what I love doing, and not to follow the norms blindly."

Eminem - Not Afraid

十字路 と私

The clouds and their various formation
Always busy, going about their own work

The trees and their continuous swayings
Are always busy as well, forming various kinds of howlings during storms, and breezes on a quiet day

The forests and their flora and fauna
Are busy growing, forming canopies and protection for the earth

The queen ant and her soldiers
Are also busy finding and ferrying food home

The people in the city
Are busy going about their own work

The people at home
Are also busy with their own affairs

その人生

A Raining Wednesday

Dark, overcast sky was looming even before dawn broke. Loving every bit of a rainy day. Streaks of rain come pouring down, the scene is not as great as that of snow flakes falling from the sky, but one calms down when seeing the rain beating against the trees, the pavements, houses and the window panes. The rain seems to make the discolored trees look even greener, the limping leaves fresher, and the dirty roofs of the houses cleaner, washing away the accumulated dirt.

Didn't work very hard in the morning. Will work hard soon.

あなたを愛する

Quiet Monday, Stormy Tuesday

Monday was slow; no emails, no calls. No communication for a straight 7 hours. The weather was relatively warm, but not too hot and humid. Another Monday of the week had passed. Still no news.

Tuesday came. The sky was already overcasted early in the morning. A huge storm followed and blue skies appeared in the early afternoon. Will there always be sunshine after the rain? Worked really hard in the morning without distraction. Will rewards come eventually? Went back to have a session with Soseki Natsume for an hour. Got distracted and continued to work hard. Tuesday has come and gone. Another week will soon pass. What a life.

Another Overcast Monday

Things are getting slower
Hopes are getting dimmer

Signs are getting weaker
Days are getting shorter

Energy is dwindling
No matter how hard she tries

Unable to control her mental state
She lets herself go with the flow

How long does she have to wait?
Nobody knows

A Tribute to Mrs Lim SL

Just the other day, I heard from a high school friend that my form teacher from 3A and 4A had passed away due to cancer. She was only 15 years our senior. I felt a great tinge of regret and sadness coz I didn't have a chance to thank her personally for the principles and life philosophy that she had incalcuated in me. I missed her every now and then. I owed my good results in my 'O's to her. She piqued my interests in both the Biology and English subjects. She treated us like friends and never in her history as our form teacher during those 2 years had she yelled at us or 'annoyed' us.

She loved to look good and seldom repeated her outfits more than three times. We loved to see her in her different pretty dresses every morning. I recall that in an outing to the beach, her then 4-year old son mistook me as her coz we were both wearing the same hair style. I also recall she asking my closed group of friends why I was such a snob, I didn't say 'hi' nor smile at her when I saw her outside the classroom. My friends explained that I was short-sighted and was unable to recognize people even 50meters away from me. I never had a chance to formally apologize to her for this. I guess it's too late now.

RIP, Mrs Lim.

Dreamland

All sorts of weird dreams appeared; dreams from the distant past and dreams from the recent past. Time ceases to exist the moment one goes to sleep. People sleep when they are tired or when they are bored. Sleeping is a form of escape, escaping from real life, escaping from our thoughts. Our thoughts about the past, the present and the future. We know about the past, the present, but we do not know about the future. Our dreams tell us our past and present, sometimes ridiculous; but they never tell us about our future. How I wish my dreams could tell me about my future, even if it's ridiculously far-fetched.

The Sky Is Overcast

Well, it's Monday again, but it's nearing end of the day. Most people had Monday blues this morning. In another time zone, in another place, the Monday blues will hit people who dread going to work. There is another group of people who does not get Monday blues at all, but what this group of people dread is the absence of human contacts.

Alone in their apartments, some of them do their best to keep themselves occupied; reading, surfing, finding work, occasionally watching TV. Some people choose to go for a walk, some choose to lay in bed and sink deeper into depression. Regardless of what they do, they share the same hope.

"I had come to hate being at home because of a sort of disgust I was feeling for people in general, and once I started felling that way, I couldn't stand the sight of my relatives, my parents, anybody. At one point I realized what I was doing and I tried to fight it, but by then it was too late. The more I struggled, the worse it became, until finally the cork popped and all the reserves of patience I had tried so hard to build were lost. I left home that very night."

Aishiteru, Soseki Natsume

The Girl with a coconut tree growing on her head

Just the other day
When we were together
We saw a little girl
He says "There's a girl with a coconut tree growing on her head!"

That tickled me
That made my feet stand on the ground
Again

That made me take stock of my life
Again

That made me slow down
Again

That made me look back in wonder
What have I done in the last 2 years?

Thank You
All I wanna say is
Thank You

Impermanence

I first met You
About a year and a half ago

We were never close
But the memory of You
Is still etched in my mind

I was extraordinary nice to You
Coz you were years my senior
Coz you commanded my respect
Despite your lackadaisical attitude
Which I discovered the reason behind it
Months later

I heard you on the phone
On that Saturday morning

You sounded well
The next thing I knew
I saw the message that you had passed on
Tears streamed down my cheeks
Naturally

R.I.P
K.W.