Wednesday, February 28, 2007

Why


Human beings are a weird lot, aren't we? I always hear people complaining about others (well, including myself) but have we ever thought if we ourselves may be at fault too? Imagine this, if we are always complaining about others, I bet others are complaining about us too. This morning, I overheard some colleagues gathered together and were complaining about some people. Not that they were at fault but I was thinking to myself, probably those people whom they were complaining about might be gossiping among themselves too!
And there are people who are great pretenders. Somehow they seem to be able to portray themselves as so noble, so innocent and are such great human beings. However, their actions don't seem to be consistent with their words! My God! What in the world are these people thinking about? I simply can't understand how one's actions can't seem to gel with one's words! How do they manage to do it? Am searching for an answer......
Someone wrote in her blog that certain people help others in order to make themselves look gracious. Gosh, I never thought about that in my entire life! If you wanna help, you will help. Why would someone help others to make themselves look good? Do most people do that? Who the hell has so much time and energy to spare in order help others so as to make themselves look gracious?? If you agree with Abraham Maslow, having met their basic nees, human beings will pursue other higher needs---> Esteem and Self-actualization. Well, I guess this theory is too general, because not everyone will satsify their needs based on this hierarchy. It also depends on the individual's character, either innate or nurtured.
You see, a person who does not know me at all and who reads my entries may think that I am a 'good' person. But who knows? Perhaps I am just one of those great pretenders? HaHa....
What more can I say!

Friday, February 23, 2007

Konayuki


粉雪
作詞: 藤巻亮太 作曲: レミオロメン

粉雪舞う季節はいつもすれ違い
人混みに紛れても同じ空見てるのに
風に吹かれて似たように凍えるのに
僕は君の全てなど知ってはいないだろう
それでも一億人から君を見つけたよ
根拠はないけど本気で思ってるんだ
些細な言い合いもなくて
同じ時間を生きてなどいけない
素直になれないなら
喜びも悲しみも虚しいだけ
粉雪ねえ心まで白く染められたなら
二人の孤独を分け合う事ができたのかい
僕は君の心に耳を押し当てて
その声のする方へすっと深くまで
下りてゆきたいそこでもう一度会おう
分かり合いたいなんて
上辺を撫でていたのは僕の方
君のかじかんだ手も握りしめる
ことだけで繋がってたのに
粉雪ねえ永遠を前にあまりに脆くざらつく
アスファルトの上シミになってゆくよ
粉雪ねえ時に頼りなく心は揺れる
それでも僕は君のこと守り続けたい
粉雪ねえ心まで白く染められたなら
二人の孤独を包んで空にかえすから

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Suicide

Suicidal ideation
Suicidal ideation is defined as considering or fantasizing about taking one’s life. Ideation may range from vague or unformed urges to meticulously detailed plans and posthumous instructions

From Wikipedia

Monday, February 19, 2007

CNY

CNY is not as exciting as it used to be. Guess I am getting old.....no more excitement of receiving red packets, no more excitement of visits from relatives, no more excitement of TV programmes....nothing. These excitements have faded into obscurity over the last many years. I don't even remember when was the last time I got so excited over CNY?

What do I look forward in life? Good food? Nope, it's not the answer for me. Good career with a reasonably good salary? Nope. A quiet life with no major setbacks? Yes.....probably. A real family? Yes....maybe. Peace and happiness for my family and all my loved ones? Yes, an absolute YES!

What do I want to acheive in the next 5 years and more years to come?

1. A healthy family
2. An apt (small one is good enough)
3. Physical Health
4. Physical Health
5. Spiritual Health, Spiritual, Spiritual
6. Peaceful life
7. Peaceful life
8. Peaceful life
9. and therefore, happiness
10. And therefore, Happiness

Leisure

The following are the books that I want to finish reading within the next 2 months:-

1. Crime and Punishment by Fyodor Dostoyevsky
2. Anna Karenina by Leo Tolstoy
3. Hunger by Elise Blackwell

I also vow to run at least 5km 3 times a week, no excuses should be given.

I also need to actively find jobs in that country. Otherwise, I will have to find a uni to do an MBA. It doesn't matter if I don't do my MBA. Doesn't matter at all. If I can work there, even if it's hard work, it's ok with me.

Countries

Saw someone posted on her blog the list of countries that she has visited. Well, mine's below...

1. Most parts of Malaysia (Several times)
2. Eastern Malaysia, Sabah (only once....:-( )
3. Jakarta, Bintan, Batam, Indonesia (Several times)
4. Manila, Philippines (Several times)
5. Hanoi, HoiAn, HoChi Min, Vietnam (Several times, except HoiAn. Beautiful place!)
6. Most of the Eastern parts of Australia (Twice)
7. Hobart, Launcestor (not sure if I have spelled correctly), Tasmania, Australia (Once, wanna visit again!)
8. Guangdong, Yunnan, Beijing, Sichuan, Urumqi,Shenzhen........China (Several times to Beijing. The rest of the cities, once! Wanna go Shanghai! Wait for me!)
9. Kyoto, Osaka, Japan (Once, will visit again!)
10. Seoul, S. Korea (Once. Free trip to Seoul? Thanks, but no thanks!)
11. London, UK (A couple of times. Still love London)
12. Kiruna, Stockholm, Sweden (Once. Unforgettable experience, but no value for money. Once is good enough)
12. Copenhagen, Denmark (Nice, wanna go again)
13. New York, U.S.A (Haha, does it include all many other cities that I transit??????)
14. Fredericton, Toronto, Canada (No more Fredericton. No more Toronto! Unless I can work in Toronto)
15. Chennai, Delhi, India (Once)
16. Kathmandu, Biratnaga, Nepal (Many times, but will never get tired going there! It's heavenly!)
17. Dhaka, Chittagong, Bangladesh (Dhaka- A city that I visited most, after KL.)
18. Colombo, Sri Lanka (Several times, not a bad place)
19. Hong Kong (Hmmm.....ok, lots of memories there, would like to visit again to relive those nice memories....)
20. Taipei, Taiwan (Err....ok)
21. Macau (Nice, wanna go again)
22. Munich, Germany (Hmm....guess London is a nicer place..err..in my personal opinion)
23. Bangkok, ChiangMai, Thailand (A couple of times)
24. Zurich, Switzerland (Once)
25. Karachi, Islamabad, Pakistan (A couple of times)

Hmm....my next dream destinations are, in order of priority:-

1. Indy!!!!!!!!, Chicago!!!!!!!
2. New Zealand (have not done any research which part of NZ to go. But guess visiting the Lord of the Rings sites would be nice.....)
2. St. PEtersburg, Russia
3. Hokkaido, Japan

And the list of countries that my loved one (you know who you are) have been to are:-

1. Fredericton, Toronto, Canada
2. Indy, Chicago, California, NY, U.S.A
3. Cancun, Mexico
4. London, UK
5. Paris, France
6. Italy (which cities?)
7. KL, other states of Malaysia
8. Kathmandu, Nepal
9. Beijing, Shenzhen, China
10. Hong Kong
11. Macau
12. Kiruna, Stockholm, Sweden
13. Copenhagan, Denmark
14. Germany (Which city?)
15. Tokyo, Japan
16. Bintan, Indonesia
17, Bangkok, Phuket, Thailand